Magic Wand

Today was the day, I just knew I could keep going like I was but it happened... I cried.  

I've been on the verge of tears for the past two days and I'm sure it's because I have deadlines to meet, appointments to make and lets be honest here... all the stress.  Seems like everything has piled up on a not so shiny silver platter this week.  I love my job and I love my life but this is the week I want to be somebody else.  Me have their responsibilities and them have mine.  I'm game for trading... just let me know - first come, first serve!

But of all the people I cry to and places... it was to Terry, at his office.  Thankfully, no one was in there but us (his guys are out of town on business or just off today).  Since he couldn't leave the store, I went to pick up lunch for us.  We were both wanting something hearty... so Cracker Barrel to the rescue.  He is having a stressful day as well so the lunch was pretty quiet.  And then it happened.  I started talking about something that was on my mind and got through the talking fine.  It's when I shut my mouth that the puddles of tears came.  And there was no hiding it.  He could tell instantly that something was wrong and I, of course run for the bathroom.  I mean, with a week like this week, who has time to run home and reapply make-up??  He kept asking what was wrong and I wanted to shout... "I NEED A MAGIC WAND!!!"  I want to be able to wave that magic wand and get things done... just the way I want them.

Unfortunately, there is no magic wand and there will be no trading.  I have to make the best with what I've got... me.  It's not going to be glamorous, I'm sure, and the road will be bumpy but if I can just make it to Friday I do believe I'm going to be okay.  And hopefully, Terry won't have to put up with an emotional, stressed out female this weekend.

So - this is my prayer today and for the days that follow...

Lord, help me to realize that I can't change the world or the people in this world.  Please help me to understand that this is my life and only I can make my life better and pleasing to you.  You are the strength that can get me through each minute of the day and by your grace I know I can make it through.  Thank you for loving me and seeing me through.  Amen.